I am human. I have bad days, like many of you. Aidpage has been my saving grace. It has given me a place to help and more often than not a place to vent. I thas also given me a connection to people whom I may not have met otherwise. These special people have been there for me time and again and I cannot thank them enough. They will never know or understand how much of an impact they have had on my life.
Like many of you, I have had it rough fro several years. Time after time I would fall, get up, dust myself off, only to be beaten down again. It wears on you. Over time, you question everything. Cynicism is your best friend. MY grandmother had the faith of a saint, anytime anyone needed anything, all they would have to do is ask gramma. She would pray and miraculously, the situation worked out in their favor. I never knew how. I just knew I was cursed for some reason. There was never anything that went right no matter how hard I tried. When Gramma died, she took her faith, and my sense of security with her. Over the years, I lost faith in the church, religion, and God. WE had many fights about whom was responsible for what. I turned away from everything. But I still held strong to a belief in the spiritual world. I knew there had to be something more than just this.
The other day, I got a link from Elaine about bullies, I read the post as well as the responses and found a very unusual post from a woman anmed Janet who, like me had been plagued with numerous problems over the years. I began to search the net - again - for curses and posessions. Everythign I foudn we no help, it wasn't what I was looking for. Then I found this
I knew right then and there - this was different. THIS was what I was looking for. This was my answer. So I prayed...that was oct 17th ....
The next day....
I got a call at work from my brother's girlfriend - Mimi - she told me all the trumped up charges against my brother by CPS had been dropped!
That night- after 2 years of searching, my mom found a house. Today she signed the papers. What is really interesting about THIS situation: The house had originally been sold , then the deal fell through, another buyer submitted a cash bid , then my mom submitted her bid. The seller rejected the cash bid and accepted my mom's offer.
Today - After months of struggling in my current position, and endless searching for a new job (constant rejections) I have had 2 calls about positions I applied for - 1 was a rejection, originally - and I got a card in the mail.
What makes this card different? First of all, the address is not quite correct. It is lacking the apartment #, it has the wrong city and zip code. Any other time someone has sent anything to me, if it had the wrong zip code, it was returned to the sender and it took weeks to be returned. This time, I received it the very next day. It says: "Thought this might help as I understand you are going through a rough time right now. God Bless."
Enclosed was a check for $300 from the corporation I work for. It is dated Oct 18th - the day AFTER I said the prayers. I don't know how or why, all I know is it has happened and it is nothing short of a miracle.
How can miracles occur for someone whom lacks so much faith in humanity and God? I don't know. But I do know that they do exist, they have occured in my life and for those of my family. I cannot explain the workings of God and I will not attempt to. I do wish I knew who did this for me, I would like to thank them personally for their selfless act. They cannot know how much they have touched my heart with their kindness.
I am here to share with you the prayers that I have found, I pray that you will be blessed as I have.
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